Earlier in the week I responded to a thread on the TES website - mainly in jest if I'm honest and I was half hoping Mr Hypnosis would see the message, cos he's a PE teacher in West Yorkshire!
http://www.tes.co.uk/section/staffroom/thread.aspx?story_id=2369730&path=/Personal/
So I emailed Biggles! He mailed me his mobile number and I texted him. We ended up talking for ages on the phone later that night - he's just as much of a chatterbox as me, and as nutty as me! We arranged to go for a meal on the Wednesday evening.
We got on brilliantly - there was such an indescribable connection there. He's like me in that he's very open and he's genuine, and I felt so comfortable talking to him: we were laughing and chatting all evening!
However, after my Mr Hypnosis experience I was a little bit wary of 'connections'. Although it has to be said, this was a much greater connection! The kind of connection where you don't have to try, or pretend, or feel that you need to play silly games. Like it all suddenly made sense that we should be there together. There's already a deep sense of trust and honesty - and I really respect that. I feel like I could tell him absolutely anything and he's not going to judge me.
He invited me to his home, but I asked him to come back to mine. That I wasn't expecting! I hadn't even defuzzed myself! And he was a perfect gentleman! He came back the following two nights and we spent Saturday together. I keep finding out things about him and thinking 'that's just like me'!
It feels so right yet it feels so scarey. Both the depth of feeling I receive from him and feel for him seems like it's too soon, and it scares me that it'll burn itself out before it's had the chance to really begin. He told me he was scared of how strongly he felt for me but said that something this deep couldn't possibly burn out quickly. I find it all quite overwhelming - and it makes me want to cry! Mad or what?
He is completely gorgeous, he has the most wonderful expressive face and eyes and he looks at me in the most amazing way - I just can't describe it! Plus of course there's the cute bum and the muscley arms and gorgeous shoulders - I am obsessed with them shoulders! And the accent! Fantastic! And he says he likes me, a lot! This man is mad!
However, having said that as I'm sat here typing this, I've not heard from him all day! I know he's with his kids, but I'd have expected a quick text :-( And part of me's worried he's come to some harm, as he's previously been a prolific texter. And he had said he's always good at getting back to people with texts.
So it's bye bye MM1 and MM2. I've already told MM2, but not MM1. I don't know if this is going to last three weeks, three months, three years or a lifetime, but it deserves to get my undivided attention, and I intend to fully enjoy it whilst it lasts!
Para xx
PS: Just done the typical girly thing of ringing him. Is busy with the kids, but at least no harm has befallen him! Feel stupid for having rung him though :-(
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