Bye Bye MM1 and MM2

... but only really from my bed!!

Well I guess it had to be done sooner or later. Really couldn't have seen Biggles and both of them at the same time - not that MM1 or MM2 would have minded! But it's not fair on Biggles. He is so fab you know - he turned up as a surprise last night having told me that he was too tired to drive over. Sigh ...

Anyway, I MSN'd MM2 on Friday about not being able to see him any more. And he didn't respond. He was silent. Felt really bad about it. Felt as though I'd used him. I guess in a way I have. I needed sex or cuddles and I could call on MM2. But if he needed the same he called on me. So maybe he used me. But then again, we are such good pals and have such good fun, and we can talk lots about anything - so it's not really as though we used each other in a way. I know I hurt him, and I'm sorry for that. But I know we'll remain friends.

MM1 was more philosophical about things though. I was more scared of telling him. I wouldn't let him come to my house in case he managed to sweet talk me into bed! And we're good friends, so it's not like he's out of my life altogether.

Both have helped me to get through the trauma of the past two years - they've always been there for me, and supported me, for which I am so grateful. Thanks guys xxx. And I am incredibly fond of them both.

But, I think I've taken a positive step! *floats away in a dreamlike state*

Para xxx