Life Sucks

OK, so this is a purely self-indulgent post, cos I feel crap and I'm trying to feel better.

Last week a very close friend lost her first baby before he was even born. She was three weeks off her due date.

OK, so life's unfair - but that's just bloody cruel.

I just can't bear to think of what she and her hubby are going through. I try and imagine how she must be feeling, but how can anything that's ever happened to me even compare to the pain of losing a baby?

And anything I could say to her just sounds so bloody pathetic and useless. And I feel like I want her to know that I really do feel for them both, but then I feel selfish because isn't that my need that's being met, not necessarily hers? But if I don't tell her how I feel then maybe she'll think I'm unfeeling and uncaring. So I get all confused and upset.

I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel. All I know is my friend must be going through hell, and I feel helpless and useless because there's nothing I can say or do to help alleviate the pain. I can deal with the crap that's dealt to me, cos I'm so often at the receiving end of it - I'm finding it hard to deal with the crap that's been dealt to my friend.

Answers on a comment please.

Para xxx

How Did I Ever Cope ...

... Without my cats?

What an excellent form of stress relief they are. Lots of cuddles from Fidge and lots of playtime with them with their vast assortment of toys!


Couldn't be without them now. I can let them out now they've had their second injections, but it scares me that I might lose them :-( But I don't want them to be stuck in the house all the time.

Fidget likes to dip his paws in my bath!

Whispy's just so dainty and cute!

Para xxx

Belly Button Piercing

It's gone.

It was getting sorer and sorer, and kept oozing manky coloured stuff.

Maybe I'll get me nipple done next?

Or perhaps a labia piercing?

Neither of which I would photograph and put on here, so don't get yourself all excited Oldy - it's dangerous at your age you know.

Para xxx

Snoring

Would the person who has said I snore on the poll, please 'fess up?!

In all my 38 years I have never been accused of snoring until now. Mr DeadTree Para says I snore! And that I keep him awake!

Personally, I think Bobo's responsible.

Para xxx

Bobo Has a Friend!

Mr DeadTree Para bought me a new doggy for sleeping with. This is because, along with the duvet, he robs Bobo at night!

So Bobo now has a new pal, Dylan!

Bobo's the mucky one on the right of the pic! Dylan's nice and clean and soft!

Para xxx

If I Love Being at Home Alone ...

... why do I miss Mr Para DeadTree so much when he's not here?

Para xxx

My Hats - Part Two!! :-)

And there's even more hats ...

Of course, there's the winter ones:

This is one of my fave winter ones. Keeps your ears nice and warm, and of course you can either chew the dangly bits - or be strangled by Mr Para as you walk along! (This hasn't happened as yet, but I so know it will - or he'll pull me along with the dangly bits!)

A similar one is:

Given to me by my good pals G&K as a Christmas gift last year. It has had one or two outings, is very nice, and is one of those ethical-type garments, but not quite as comfy as the previous one.

And here are my other winter ones:

The last one is about 24 years old ... eeeek! I feel sooooo old!

And then finally, there's my Simply Red cap, which I've had for years too:

Which is even more special, now that they've announced that they're splitting up.

Thanks to the Polar Bear (a Christmas pressie from a student a few years ago) for modelling the hats so beautifully!

Para xxx

My Hats :-)

This is dedicated jointly to Mr DeadTree Para and NotGeoffrey, both of whom very much dislike my blue denim hat!!!

When I was in Florida last Christmas, the oldies found me a blue denim hat which they loved on me - but it was too big, so when I found this denim one I was delighted that it fits! One of my students says I look like a young Twiggy in it!!! At least someone has something positive to say about it!

And, with hair like mine, bad hair days are frequent - so a hat hides this! And if you're out for the evening and sleep over somewhere and don't have time for a shower in the morning, you can just put a hat on and look vaguely presentable!

I have, on my phone, a picture of the delightful NG wearing this hat (also the lovely Woody as well) and when I've worked out how to get the pics from my phone to my computer, I may publish it! hehehehehe!!

This is my bellydancer's hat:

No, I don't do belly dancing - although I do have the belly for it! (Sadly, now minus the belly piercing due to too much ooze coming out of it).


I saw this when I was in Florida and it just appealed to me!

Now this is my Mickey Mouse hat - it was very sunny in Florida and I didn't have a hat to protect my head, so bought this. The black scarf round it has small Mickey Mouse logos on it! When I met Mickey Mouse, he pointed to my hat and gave it a thumbs up!

This is my fave - cos it's red of course!!!

That's all for now cos Coronation Street Beckons and it takes a bloomin age to get pics on here!!

Para xxx

That's Shocking!!!

Only five posts in September! Am always thinking about what to blog next - so ideas are welcome!

I think my next one will be about my hats, in honour of NotGeoffrey and Mr DeadTree Para!

Para xxx