Memories of 14th April ...

... Sorry, but it's all consuming.

1. Pain. And lots of it.
2. Blood. And lots of it.
3. The ambulance being freezing cold.
4. The clock in the ambulance telling the wrong time.
5. Holding two of the sacs when they came out - dropping one when I didn't realise what it was, but keeping hold of the other for a moment when I realised.
6. Feeling relieved when they came out as the pain stopped. (And now feeling guilty for feeling relieved.)
7. The gorgeous mashed potato they served for lunch.
8. Mr Para coming to hold my hand when they told me about cremating the babies, as that's when I got upset.
9. Intense boredom waiting to be discharged.

At some point I'm sure I'll begin to feel vaguely normal again. I should be 17 weeks pregnant by now.

Para xxx